wondering what they think of it all (me).
Personally I think it will prove better in the long run as if I had pulled it off by a “fluke”, it would have been on examined knowledge + one ought to start on such a profession as Medicine on something more solid than that. In addition, I have the satisfaction of having completed the last 3 courses of instruction during the term.
That I “cracked up”- it was insomnia during the last week – is not excuse since I deliberately took the risk and have accept the consequences.
I shall spare no effort to make as certain as is humanly possible of getting through in December.
Since seeing you for that brief 15 minutes in Edinburgh, I have had the very real pleasure of meeting Mr. & Mrs. Hope Monesieff + Mrs. Landsborough. The result of this has been to make more impatient more than ever to get out to “the front” as soon as possible. When, as at the present moment I feel depressed + fed up, it is just the vision of the goal which has been my aim throughout the last five years which enables me to hang on + stick it.
Meanwhile I can only say that it is a melancholy duty to have to write that I have

故使我很好奇考完試後，大家對我看法為何。
我個人認為若我這次「意外」考好，長期下來對我比較有利，因這次考試內容著重在知識測驗，一個人應該在更扎實的基礎上展開醫療職涯。另外，我很高興告訴你，我這學期已完成3門指導課程。
雖然我這次考試「崩潰」，後一週可說是失眠，但這不足以當藉口，因為是我執意冒著風險去應考，應該自行承擔結果。
我會竭盡全力，戮力撐過12月。
自從上次在愛丁堡與你相見15分鐘後，我有幸與Hope Monesieff夫婦與蘭大衛太太相遇，也更加讓我想盡快前往「前線」服務。現今的我只感到憂鬱及煩躁，唯有想著我未來目標，讓我5年以來有力量堅持下去。
同時，即便我知道再過幾個月情況會好轉（我個人見解），不得不說，寫下自己失敗的事情真是讓人鬱鬱寡歡。

註：Monesieff 原件文字未能辨識清楚